Attachment to perfectionism, hi.
I am a slave to perfection. In fact, it is an absolutely paralyzing fear. Stage fright, shyness, imposter syndrome, addicted to validation, you name it, I’ve got it. It is recently so clear to me that, in so much fear of judgement and hate, I silence myself. I lamented over posting this because I thought I didn’t have enough hair in the photo. I often ask myself who made me king, who gave me the RIGHT to speak out with my opinion when I am no expert, and I can never be right.
As usual, mindset shifts are hard. And this is of course not a post to showcase my triumph over mental road blocks. But it is a record of my journey, on my own profile, as my personal opinion and thoughts an feelings.
I’m posting this to tell myself I AM VALID FOR FUCK SAKES. I’m can’t be always right, I can’t be perfect, BUT IT IS OK. (This is not some narcissistic self-pity thing either. Self-critic pls take a seat.)
On a journey to re-parent myself, to some day find a sense of belonging and safety in life again. And if you’re feeling lonely + not enough too - don’t worry, you’re not alone. I for one, share your VALID thoughts + being.
Sharing love and light 🧚🏻♀️💫
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